To be ME
Since I have made a decision to go ahead with doing a cochlear implant I have been having mixed feelings about it. As I lay down at night I wonder, when I will be able to lay down again after surgery. Will I have vertigo problems for the rest of my life? As I eat my my apple I wonder if I will be able to taste again? As I ride my bike I wonder if I will be able to maintain my balance. When I play Dawn on the piano, listen to a Million Dreams or Be Still My Soul, will my soul still find joy, peace and comfort in music? I remind myself, I already made my decision. I am ready for something that could potentially be better, that will hopefully allow me a little more freedom for me to be ME. Today I close the door to the past. Tomorrow open the door to the future, I am making my choice to surrender to what is, let go of what was and have faith in what will be. I know I am not alone.

Videonystagmography (VNG) test. Testing induced vertigo to read your eye response to see how well your vestibular system is working. I hated this test. It brought back too many memories of having debilitating vertigo in the past. Result? Right side is 25% weaker than my right. Typically you would want to implant the weaker ear but we decided to keep going with the left.



Videonystagmography (VNG) test. Testing induced vertigo to read your eye response to see how well your vestibular system is working. I hated this test. It brought back too many memories of having debilitating vertigo in the past. Result? Right side is 25% weaker than my right. Typically you would want to implant the weaker ear but we decided to keep going with the left.


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